Friday, October 31, 2014

Less than 100LBS to my Goal Weight!!

I am finally out of the 280s and into new territory with the 270s!!! Annnnddd... I have LESS than 100lbs to go until I reach my weight loss goal. Did you hear me? LESS than 100 Pounds to go! WOW! A year ago if you said I would have been here I would have thought you were out of your mind. I am so proud of myself, but also more eager to see more. To see the scale go down even more. I can see the 260s and I am ready to be in them and continue this journey going down. One day at a time.

I started this journey in June 2013 at 377lbs after being 412lbs after having my 2nd child in April 2013. Before getting pregnant in 2012 I was 406lbs. So I had 232lbs to lose to my goal of 180lbs. That's a whole 'nother overweight person to lose. LOL. (Glad I can laugh at this now, but before....) I was able to get down to 377lbs after losing my baby weight and continued on from there. Now at 277lbs I have 97lbs to go until I reach that goal of 180. My next mini goal is to be 250lbs by my vacation to Florida for Christmas 2014. 27 more pounds to go for that!

Let's keep pushing! I can do this! I AM doing this!


Friday, August 15, 2014

Guess Who's Back.... in the 280s

So, a day ahead of my estimate I am in the 280s!!!!!! Woot woot! Do my dance, do my dance!!!

What a wonderful surprise! And the push I needed to realize this journey is more than doable. I do not plan on visiting the 280s for long as I already have a taste of blood for the 270s :). That is 123lbs lost total so far!! I am almost 100 pounds away from my goal!!!! Amazing! I am amazing!!! I've got this!

-K ❤❤❤

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Goodbye 290s

Long time no post, but....I'm 291.4lbs

I am here. I have been hovering under the 300s because of various things including summer, my knee, and more excuses. Nonetheless, I am back in the correct mode and mindset. As I am about to say farewell to these dreaded 290s. I would like to say it was nice visiting. I overstayed my welcome, but it was nice to see you again anyway. Now, time to visit your neighbor and never see you again!!!!

280s here I come!

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Still here...Crutching along...

Yay my 28th Birthday is tomorrow! June 12th!! So, I’ve been a little MIA, and no it is not because I have gone off course, but because I injured my knee again. It has gotten me a bit bummed, honestly, but also has now given me even more motivation. So, I went to the doctor to get my knee checked out officially, and I already know the basic reasons they will say that I am having the issues with my knee. Clearly, one is WEIGHT. So, I always brace myself for the moment when the doctor will stick that comment in the middle of his/her prognosis. So, I get checked and the orthopedic doctor I was referred to says (wait for it!) “I have to be honest with you, you are going to have to lose some weight…” -_- and I respond with a chuckle and then a sigh. And the doctor looks at me confused probably thinking I find her comments to be a joke or something. So I just respond letting her know that I am losing weight…matter of fact I am in the middle of losing weight really. At that point she looked at my chart and history and realized that I am in fact in the middle of losing weight, halfway to my weight loss goal, and that she coulda skipped that part with a lil research. HAHA. But nonetheless, more of the same to continue losing weight and some physical therapy to strengthen my muscles that support my knees and I should be as new as a baby…or close.

My general doctor, bless her heart, on the other hand remembered to look at the history first before commenting on the obvious and instead said, “Last time you were here in August 2013 you were 360 right?...WOW look at you…continue doing what you are doing and don’t let this discourage you…even athletes go through this same injury…you’ll be just fine.” As if God needed to pick me back up even further, I ran back into her as she was leaving the hospital for the day and I was leaving my referral orthopedic appointment crutching out the door at snail speed, and she continued to lift me up letting me know that she too had to stop running for 2 weeks because her knees gave her issues and became inflamed, and she is as thin as a toothpick. It was like she refused to let me leave until I assured her that I know that this too shall pass and that, as with anything in life, you don’t let the downfalls become your excuse. I needed that encouragement and I needed that understanding from someone who realized that my current weight that day would be different the next time I saw her. There is just NO quit in me.

I’m 295…..and healing…..

-K ❤❤❤

Thursday, May 15, 2014

What a wonderful Surprise!!! The 200's

Stepped on the scale this morning expecting to see 300 and guess what I saw? 299.8. Now, if you round that you get 300, but there is no rounding today buddy! I'm in the 200's!!! YAAAAAA.... for the first time in about 10 years or so. I was upper 200's in high school so there it is! Yippee! Singing Pharrell's "Happy"...and all that other good feeling stuff.

Now, let's talk about 2 things....where I've been and where I'm going. I was 406lbs about 2 years ago. I lost 30 something to get down to 370lbs and then I became pregnant with my second son, gained it all back and some more, and ended at 412lbs. Ready to continue what I started I had my baby and went right back into grind mode after recovery in June 2013. Since then I have lost 113lbs to be where I am today. It's been about 11 months and I can tell you I am so proud of myself. I know I can do anything I put my mind to, but this challenge is a DOOZY let me tell you. I love food with a passion. Cheese, check. So my journey has not ever been about restricting myself of the foods I love, but reducing them drastically. That way I can still down me some macaroni and cheese or some Boston Baked Beans candy (YUM!) but know that I am not overdoing. I will not gain from these decisions. I am making smart, thought out decisions about what I plan to eat today. If I want more, I'll eat it tomorrow...or the next day...or the next day...because life does continue past today. Yes that home-made, momma put her foot in it, cheese is dripping macaroni and cheese may look like it will disappear if you do not demolish it right now...but it won't. It will still be here tomorrow. So, rest easy knowing that you tasted it, it tasted amazing, and you will still lose weight after eating it!

Now, for the more daunting part..... I have 119lbs to go to get to my goal (not permanent, but a good look) of 180lbs. I have more to lose than I have lost so far. I have another century to climb down before I even get there. However, the game plan doesn't change much for the next phase. Exercising as much as I can Monday through Friday and eating well below my BMR enjoying healthy foods as well as unhealthy foods haha. I will enjoy it all and still lose! (mostly healthy though I promise ;) )

Til the next bit of good news....Have an AMAZING DAY!

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Scale, why do you tease me so?

I've been a bit MIA lately. Not really on purpose, but not much to discuss. Been up and down and up and down around the same 303lbs to 306lbs with good days and bad days, but never stopping my exercise routine. Going hard this week, I am happy to report that I am 301.4....oh so close to the 2's it is INSANE!!! I realize that this journey is about constantly reminding yourself why you are doing this, why you are putting your body through so much pain and brutality (LOL), why you need to refresh and get back to your "Do or DIE" mindset. Sometimes we get a little distracted with what we have achieved that we get stuck at that one point instead of continuing on to the next level. I've had to refresh myself at least 100 times during this journey....and this entry is #101. I'm ready to tackle this journey again from 299 on down to 200! Let's go!
..Keep Pushing....I'll be there sooner than you know!

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Sprained Knee

Well I sprained my knee on Wednesday and haven't been able to exercise since. It has definitely taken its toll on being discouraging. But despite that, I've lost 4lbs....Not sure how or why or what but there it is. I can say that I still diet.. Eat my correct calories and portions... But just no exercise unless you count crutching around the house. :/ Hopefully not muscle loss. I'll restart exercising slowly next week. I'm just so close aarrggghhhhhh!!!!!!

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Reminder pants

So, I have saved all my size 26 & 28 size clothes. I still wear them and all because 1) I don't really believe in wasting money on clothes that I don't plan on fitting either in a few months and 2) I like to be reminded of my progress based on the fit of those clothes now compared to almost a year ago. My 2nd son will be 1 year old in 2 days so it reminds me that I started this journey about 11 months ago...Almost a year ago...

But anyway, today I put on these size 28 pants that I love from Lane Bryant. I have worn them the whole time seeing them get looser and looser, but today something was different. I could barely walk in them without tripping, and having to pull them up from walking. Apparently, I didn't realize that the pants getting bigger would also mean them getting longer in a sense. They are so loose that it is borderline presentable in a business setting. It has caused me to consider retiring one of my favorite pants. :/

Bitter Sweet I guess....What a difference a year makes....
I'm 307lbs

Saturday, April 12, 2014

So close I can taste it!!

I am 309lbs and officially 10 pounds from seeing the 200s for the first time in almost 10 years. How bout that? I've already done a quick exercise today and have some cleaning and stuff to do so I will be moving quite a bit today while being aware of what I am eating for the day. Water weight is officially gone so I finally can keep pressing forward to obtain my goal of being 260 in exactly 2 months. It is an optimistic goal and I know I may not reach it, but I will push for it until I do get there!

I look forward to more good progress soon...

Sunday, March 30, 2014

I've lost 100lbs!! What a milestone!!

I have lost 100lbs since I had my baby last April 2013!!!!! WOWZERS!!! I am 312.4 as of today (312.6 yesterday as the pic shows). I am soooo proud of myself. I didn't expect to see any lost for atleast another week because of mother nature but what an early surprise!!!! I wasn't going to log this weight because I am a bit under the weather so I will keep it nice and short and sweet until tomorrow.

I did not exercise yesterday and won't likely today because I am just too weak from being under the weather but I should be back at it tomorrow. That messes up my 21 day streak of exercising, but even the most dedicated deserves a break. Maybe that is why my body did this to force me to take a break since I have been on Hulk mode lately.

Well, anyway, I'VE LOST 100LBS!!!!! 130lbs more to go...hahaha! But for now...YAAAAAAA!!!! *do my dance, do my dance*

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Confessions of a Daily Weigher

I've lost 7lbs in 1 week!! Sweet!! So as I continue to lose weight I'd like to discuss areas in my journal that keep me on the right path. Weight loss for me is about being the best me I can be in all areas of my life...not just body wise, but including weight.

I'm a daily weigher for one reason and one reason only: I'm too impatient to wait a week. I need the reassurance that I am headed in the right direction on a day to day basis. I need to see the little improvements. I don't need it all at one time. LOL. Clearly weighing everyday has its advantages and disadvantages. Some disadvantages include going insane when the scale moves up .2 or more pounds, seeing small decreases instead of largers ones, and pretty much an overall obsession or addiction to the scale. :) Some advantages are that you get to keep a close eye on your weight day in and day out, you can make adjustments when things aren't going as expected, and you get the thrill and excitement of weighing each morning.

For me I enjoy the anticipation of knowing that I did what I needed to do and now it's up to the scale to show me what I've earned. When I happen to go up, I don't panic really, I just remind myself that it has only been a DAY, not a week like it may feel like. I get myself back into the mindset and just remind myself that tomorrow the scale will give me the GOODS. :))

On another note, I have on an outfit that I haven't worn in years...Hey now!!!

Happy Thursday!

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Cry a Happy Cry :)

This morning I cried a happy cry to see the scale just move down day in and day out and know it is because of how hard I have been pushing to make sure I am eating good foods that taste amazing and exercising every single day including weekends.

This weekend plan was a success. I woke up Saturday and Sunday and exercised while the baby played around me and watched me too. Sunday I REALLY didn't want to get up to even do it, but I did it anyway because I hate the feeling of being burdened. I just did it and got it off my chest. As well, even though I was home with the kids for a snow day yesterday I woke up and did the same thing so I would have no excuses later in the day. I did it! and I am soooo proud of I cried a happy cry as my scale told me " are 16 pounds away from 300lbs...go ahead and cry" LOL!

Happy Tuesday!

Sunday, March 16, 2014

I'm under 320lbs....HOORAY!

So, as you see I am now UNDER 320lbs...ahhhhhh. Feels great to have accomplished such a tough feat. Nonetheless, I am here and can not be distracted by this big win as my next goal to be under 300lbs is a fiercer opponent.

I'm focused, I'm driven, I'm losing weight.

Good Day!

Friday, March 14, 2014

On the door to new territory....under 320lbs

How exciting to be on the door to new territory. I am about to be under 320lbs!!! *Place gasp here* I have some serious anticipation going on because I am 20 pounds away from 300lbs and I am still on track of my 1st goal of being 260lbs by my 28th Birthday in June. It is a doable goal if...when I remain focused and continue to do as I have been doing. I've been eating great foods that are satiating to me and very tasteful, while also exercising for 20 minutes or more everyday. Currently doing boxing mainly through my PS3 game called "THE FIGHT" and a little treadmill walking and running. I enjoy the game because it gets you in the zone where you are actually fighting an opponent that is fighting you back. It becomes more of a game to me than exercise.

I plan on changing my weekends to exercising in the morning as well as I really don't need days off as I kinda enjoy the euphoric feeling of completing exercise anyway and knowing I am doing something well for me. Not to mention I am on a mission and just have no time to waste. SO, in the morning when the baby wakes up I will head strait to my family room and work out while he plays around and watches me in baby awe. Shortly thereafter, he will pass out for his morning nap and I can then have a breather for all the hard work I just put in to start my days. I look forward to testing out the first weekend.

The other issue I have on weekends is not overeating. I mean when you are home most of the time or even on the run most of the time you either are raiding the fridge or eating out on the go. So, being able to make sensible choices and have my fridge stocked with healthy and delicious snacks should help me to beat that weekend beast. In addition to this, logging my calories like it's homework is my friend. I'm optimistic!

Happy Friday!

Saturday, March 1, 2014

The Unthinkable is about to happen! (Beware)

It's been a journey for me to get to where I am. I had to put life in perspective. I've accomplished so many things in life that I know this is just another goal awaiting my perseverance. I had to change my eating habits, gain a LOT of will power, and hold on to determination. It's hard sticking to something that yields very little results on a 24 hour basis. You don't see the change right away. That drives most people insane. My self included. Several scales may have been destroyed due to this insanity. So, for me to be here is an accomplishment in itself, but not an excuse to stop. I'm looking forward to being under 320 next week and finally being able to accomplish a huge goal in reaching 300..then being under 300. That is something that is quite unthinkable for me. Me, under 300?...nooooo...LOL. We're talking high school weight then. New dress sizes and all.

SO, I am continuing on to Boot Camp Week #3 Starting Monday. 1500 calorie goal and 30 minutes of boxing. Mind you, I always surpass my goal in calories, but my point in having it is to reach for it so much that when I eat 1 or 2 additional snacks it doesn't kill me.

Happy Saturday!

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Pushing Foward....

Ahhh....Finally beat the new scale difference and some. Being so close to 300 lbs I sometimes get this anxious and fearful feeling combined where I feel like it's impossible or I can't make it or something. Now, I know I can do it...I clearly have done it thus far, but it is that whisper in your ear, that negativity, that satan-like "to and fro reaking havoc" type of lie. So, I have to talk to myself sometimes (that's ok right? as long as I don't answer?....answer and tell myself that I know can do this. I go down a list of things in my head that I started and conquered in my life even when others may not have believed. I am a walking success I apply that to this goal too. No more hovering and pretending like that's ok. I must push forward. I'm coming for you teens of the 300s...I'm coming! I'm 322.8. S/N : Happy Bday to the luv of my life.

Friday, January 17, 2014

Vow of Silence....

...Still on Vow of Silence.....stay tuned.

VOS: Not saying much til I am under 325lbs...project put up or shutup....

I'm currently 326.2

Stay Tuned...